Wednesday, November 09, 2011

So tired

of staying late, coming in early, skipping breaks, missing lunches and especially of having to babysit my freaking employees! I'm sorry I didn't say thank you to you for doing your job, for getting your work done, for coming in close to when you were scheduled (only 10 minutes late) and for leaving the moment your shift was done. I am sorry for saying thank you to the other person who came in on his days off and came in early every frickin' day to help me while slighting you....

And did anyone fucking thank me for coming in early, staying late, missing lunches and breaks to do my job?? No. Am I upset about it? No, because the best damned thank you I get is that big fat bonus check next month. It's my job to make sure my clients are happy and if that means I miss a meal here and there to kick an order out the door, then that's what I will do, and most of the time I do it without whinging (though missing lunch does make me cranky, so watch out!).

Seriously though, why should I single you out just because you did your job without putting in a bit of extra effort when your co-worker worked his fanny off and did it whenever I asked him to??

And instead, I have to play nice and apologize to my employee in order to keep fucking harmony. What I really want to say is "GROW UP!" but I can't. I have to say BS like "You made yourself so invaluable to the team on a regular basis that we forget to thank you." Blech. And now I am going to have to go to my boss and restore harmony by asking him to make both of my employees Employee of the Month next month, even though only one actually deserves it.

For me.

It's been a long winter. Mentally, I feel even worse off than I was before, though things are finally looking up. I abandoned the gym. I...