Thursday, October 20, 2011

Meet Stumpy

Stumpy was named Stumpy during the regretful period where he only had one leg. Unfortunately for Stumpy, I had to go to work the next day, and just had to stop knitting. And unfortunately for Stumpy, the name stuck, even when he got his second leg. Although DD keeps calling him Bob.... What the hell kinda name for a ninja is Bob??

By the time I am done, I shall have knit an army of ninjas, and they may just band together and take over the world. Or maybe just the entire Tri-State area!

Seriously though, all my co-workers think he's adorable and for the low, low price of $5 each I have offered to make them their very own ninjas! The $5 covers my yarn cost, between them the little extra will pay for stuffing and felt. Honestly, they are fun and easy to knit, so as long as I am paid for supplies, my time is well spent. And when I am done I do believe we will have to take a picture of our virtual rainbow of ninjas taking over my copy center, before they head off to storm the castle.

Sunday, October 16, 2011

7 Squares

Here they are as promised, the 7 completed squares for my crazy quilt blanket.


Click for a larger view with notes on yarn.

Saturday, October 15, 2011

Crazy Quilt Update and other cool things

The weather turned lovely and cool last week, then wham! Shot right back up to 80 today. But it's still very much Fall around here. I have a 3 day weekend to enjoy, so I see much knitting being accomplished while I watch spooky-ooky shows on TV.

I have 7 squares complete, and I plan to lightly block them tomorrow, just so I can see them laid out and pretty, lol. I shall also take pictures! I promised the kiddo a pair of socks, since the very girly ones I knit for her are already too small. *Sigh* I will likely cast on for them tomorrow, but....

I MUST knit this first!
Isn't it cute?? It's Ninja (duh) from KnitWit, by Katie Boyette. So many cute patterns in there, but this guy is first and the DD is asking for a pink one as well, hahaha.

Edited to add: 10-17 I have most of my ninja's head knit, even after having to go back and unknit a row to find my start again after rearranging on my needles to discover I lost my stitch marker along the way, lol. I need to get some polyfill so I can start stuffing him as I knit the rest.

Sunday, October 02, 2011

Down day

I've had a rough day today. I can't remember having a day this bad in years. It's not that anything bad has happened, I just feel very down. That's the demon named Depression. It leaves me alone most of the time, but then WHAM! There it is again.

I woke up with a headache. That kind of started it. After a while I started to feel sorry for myself and then I was crying about nothing. The weather outside is beautiful, but I can't muster up the energy to even get dressed today. I don't want to do anything, go anywhere or let anyone see me. I have nothing to wear, my shirts are all stained, I'm fat, I'm frumpy and on and on and on, the voice of Depression goes.

So I take pain relievers for the headache, then cry and make it worse. I tried to sleep, but one of the things Depression brings when it visits is insomnia. So I am more and more tired, and more and more depressed. As a result the demon grows stronger. It's a vicious cycle.

I sent my family off this evening, to an information meeting for a trip abroad that my daughter has a chance to take. I was excited about it, but today I can't dredge up the energy to go. I can't even make myself get dressed and go pick up my prescription at the pharmacy, telling myself that I can take one of my "spare" pills tonight and go get the refill tomorrow. So here I sit, thinking, crying.

Maybe it's good that I only had today off. Tomorrow I will have to get out of bed, get cleaned up, get dressed and go to work. There will be no debate with myself on what to wear, I'll throw on my black pants and my blue shirt, just like I do every day for work. I won't have time to sit and think and listen to the demon whisper in my ear. And for awhile it will go away. Maybe tomorrow will be a good day and it will go away for a good long time again. Or maybe it won't.

If that happens, I will know it's time to talk to my doctor again. Time to think about going on meds again. If that's what it takes to get me sleeping again, and on an even keel, then that's what I'll do.

For me.

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